V I N C E N T

V-你平时说话很多，不过所谓祸从口出，所以都有一些讨厌你的人。
I-你的脾气颇大，EQ指数比较低，有时会控制不住情绪。
N-你是热爱工作的大忙人，却永远渴望有个能放松的假期。

C-你有一棵野性的心，别害羞将它表露出来。

E-你是一个勇敢面对挑战的人。
T-你对人处事的态度有问题，所以唔知咩事得罪人


你们说准吗？
我自己都给85%

Note To God

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak what's in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
and for peace to mend this world

I'd say
I'd say
I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue
And it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find a way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness
in our hearts

I'd say
I'd say
I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on

No
No

We can't do it on our own

So
So

(Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love, cause love is overdue)
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is going wrong
On this road we're on

No
No
(No)We can't do it on our own

(So)
So

If I wrote a note to God

还以为

我还以为我自己可以做到。。。

我还以为我可以当什么都没有发生过。。。

我还以为强颜欢笑。。。

原来我还是过不到自己那关。。。

我还是不能摆脱上一年的魔咒。。。

我还是要经历那种不知道什么原因就被人判了死刑

my decision

Well...
you had make ur choice...

and i will make my decision...Fair?

This is the last time i will cry for this...

never n ever again ....

Obey and Humble

Dun know how to begin my post so jz straight away to the point....

i was so happy that what god did to me recently...

i need to apologize to my friend that i quite emo last 3days i think...lol

i emo cuz some stupid childish or unmature thing that happen on me...

that time mayb i stil can't let it go my pressure or some emotion...

just my childish thinking make myself emo...so now i recover edi...

cuz i realize that this is a challenge from god...

god need to test my endurance...

c whether i easy get mad or not...

haiz...let my god dissapointed cuz i really easy get mad...

my EQ quite low recently...

but i will keep remind myself won't easy get mad or emo again...hehe

Im so happy that my 2 of my ex cg leader did to me...

im also happy that my roommate did to me...

thx god that put those ppl beside me so that can teach me alot...

so i really need to learn obey n humble myself...

cuz i really realize that if we obey n humble myself...

we can c difference things...

something that is beatiful , unvalueable ...

life will bcome better,

life will bcome easier

bcuz when we humble n obey ourself...

we will won't haggle, bicker or argue...

and without this ' emotion ' i think...

than you really won;t emo or angry...

im stil learning this...

so i hope that i really did this in my real life in one day soon ^^

Sick of it...

If Cry... If Smoke ...If Drink can really settle down my problem...

than pls let me cry out loud...

smoke until i sore throaT ....drink until i vomit...

cuz i really sick of my life....n u ....

Grey Mood

Am i so unimportant ?

Am i so insignificant ?

I hope im not the one who being neglect by others...

I hope im not the one who being ignore by others...

is it the road or the way we choose are not same

so you all gonna leave me at here?

is it need wait until i ask only can remind urs to tell me something i wanna know?

if i not gonna ask than i won't the answer forever?

or you all already forgot who am i ?

i really feel helpless sometime...

y everybody know what to do the next n i still waiting like idiot ?

i am stil new in there...

but why you all really expect me know everything?

why nobody wanna explain to me what is going on?

Is it really my problem or you all like to play last minit?

Life that i used to have before

Today i went to pavillion with my housemate...
i feel super duper sad...
bcuz i saw many nice pant,shirt,clothes n jacket....
i want to buy it buy my finance reject me...
haiz....
y i wil bcome like that?
y my bank acc almost bankrupt?
somemore my pocket money is not enuf for me to spent...
maybe people will sad i use alot money everyday....
but my answer is No...
i eat lunch dinner n sometime supper...
but i just eat' dai bai tong '
i really less eat kim gary...
even MCD n KFC also no money to go...T_T

I think i need to find a part time job edi...
life that no money to spent really make me so headache...
so suffer on it....so sick on it...grrrrrrrrrrrrr
i really dun know wher my money gone ....
is just like that money hav their leg n runaway from me T_T
somemore i very paiseh to tell my parent that i not enuf pocket money...
cuz im 20 yrs old soon...cannot always ask money from parent...
i will bcome very guilty on it...suppose i giv money to them
not they giv money to me.....somemore my pocket money is damn high
if compare to others...

i anticipating i can walk into starbuck and drink my fav drink cappuccino...
sit at ther serve net with my lovely laptop like last time ><
i really expect i can b like last time...
i can buy whatever i like...
i can go the place wharever i wan~
arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
perharp the day i expect come soon...

Start from today my church want us to fast meal....
i so glad that i can join too....
i hope that i can tahan the hungry feel...
wanna fast my lunch and supper ...
prepare my heart to the god...
Pls lead me to the life i expect ....

Study Hard

Recently I'm thinking bout my future~
i'm thinking that what should i b in my future?
i don't wanna just cincai find a job than work hard for it ...
i wan to find some job that really i like...
i dun want a low salary job...
i dun wan my life bound to a job that i dun like...
actually i am anticipating my future...
last time i was afraid to think of my future...
i was thiking that my future is black...or black and white...
cuz i hav no skill(got la ....abit la) , no interpersonal relationship
so that is quite hard for me to find a great job...

But now i think different ...
i'm thinking that i should not thinking those troublesome question...
and the right thing for me to do is study hard for my STPM...
my parent have been given so much of money support to me ...
i cannot let down my parents...if not i am a disobedience child (><)!!!
so i wanna to study degree ~
i don't wanna my school life just stop at my STPM level...
it is very unworthy to me and to my parent ><
so.....STUDY HARD STUDY HARD STUDY HARD ~
hehe..

Although now i'm abit old...almost 20 T_T
after my degree life is 23-24...
but i still wanna study...even though some of my fren
maybe already buy a new car,or even a house...
but i know that is worth for me to study..
cuz i wanna wear that ' square college cap 'hehe
somemore i am the only child in my family...
cannot humiliation my family ~

so i pray to the god...
take off all my idleness,indolent and laziness....
4 more month i having my exam ><
so must really really gambateh edi...add oil...
fight for my ptptn for degree...hehe

气球

黑的白的红的黄的
紫的绿的蓝的灰的
你的我的他的她的
大的小的圆的扁的
好的坏的美的丑的
新的旧的各种款式各种花色任你选择

黑的白的红的黄的
紫的绿的蓝的灰的
你的我的他的她的
大的小的圆的扁的
好的坏的美的丑的
新的旧的各种款式各种花色任我选择

飞的高高越远越好
剪断了线它就死掉
寿命短短高兴就好
喜欢就好没大不了
越变越小越来越小
快要死掉也很骄傲

你不想说就别再说
我不想听不想再听
就把一切誓言当作汽球一般随它而去
我不在意不会在意放它而去随它而去

气球
飘进云里
飘进风里
结束生命

气球
飘进爱里
飘进心里
慢慢死去

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不懂。。。郁闷

今天是我不见笔记电脑的第3天了
我还真的以为我会没事。。。
原来这只是我隐瞒自己的动作。。
我真的为了我自己的笔记电脑不见难过了。。
不想去埋怨抱怨那个贼。。。
因为我知道就算这样做
我的笔记电脑永远都拿不回来了。。
不想去开口和家人说。。。
因为不要让家人去负担了。。。
自己又没有能力买。。。
现在又不能工作。。。
我现在都不懂可以做些什么了
我唯一一个可以陪我过时间的东西没了。。
每晚就是发呆+发呆吧。。。
郁闷~