My Inward Word ...part 1

Dun know why...
i really love famous brand...
i like to buy famous brand product,no matter is clothes ,short pant , jeans , jacket , cap and more....i like to make myself look like a rich person...
although i know that that is waste money...thats no need to buy such a so expensive t-shirt...but i stil wil do it...y? i dun know y
mayb this is a self protection...mayb is the society make me change...

i found that if u r not wearing a nice or famous brand clothes...
somebody or some stanger who walking in the road wil keep look at u...
mayb is just my physiological action...but dun know y...i keep hav the feel..
second point is...my physiological ask me to do this...i dun know i may been curve or wat..when i c a famous brand clothes in shopping centre..i wil staright away buy it...i dun care how much i also must get it...lol...i think im a shopoholic...

But the problems is getting serious...because of my part time job is high salary...
so that i can buy more famous brand stuff...exp stuff...this chinese new yrs i really buy a lot of new shirt , new pant ,new jacket, new beg and new lap top and more...Although iam not spenting my parent money but i also feel very guitly..haiz

im not going to show off ....but i think i really have to stop it...
if keep going like this...i sure wil bankrapt...i dun wan spent my life with no money...i dun know my bank always left RM5....

I like to buy famous brand stuf but i more like to eat expensive food...
i enjoy the environment, i enjoy all the exp food...i enjoy live in the luxurious life...haiz....

-to be continue-

2008 - 2009 life

it have been a long time i am not update my blog...
this few month is very meaningfull to me..
i work for P1
chinese new yrs
gathering
party
i really get alot of fun...
but it was also feel alot of fear , hopeless sometime
dun know why my study mode is totally loss...
try to escape from the class the school...
i start to ask myself again m i choosing a right coursE?
i edi make a wrong decision for once..
i really dun wan to happen again
haiz...
hope my mood is back...
than i can archieve my dream....
n i also decide to go segi college in damansara...
hope me good luck ba ^^

Today so bored when i wake up....
so i went to kelana jaya swimwing pool there...
haiz...really tired...
swim 6round edi wanna die...so tired
body getting heavy...haiz...really wan to diet edi =p

after that went to ara damansara niu zhe siu shopping...
eat at one restaurant who name ka fei dian...
food not bad but quite expensive ....

than went to starbucks drink cappacino...
so damn expensive but very nice ...
sales pretty...place comfortable...
after that hav dinner with housemate at feeling cafe...
the person who sing there really not very good...
normal normal only...food sux...drink so so...lol
but today really so happy ya ^^

I Love you ...Leona Lewis

i really really like LEONA LEWIS...
she is so talent...
she really is my first idol ...
damn it....like her so much (>.<)!!!
She is so skillful for every song that she sing in live...

Run - leona lewis
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

well....exam is over...
overall the exam is not that hard that i think....
and i also celebrate for my ' finish exam ' date edi...
we go for neway for sing midnight karaoke...11pm to 4am
than last monday go to clubbing barcelona with my housemate...
the whiskey is good...enviroment not bad...n eleven is amazing there...haha

ok...
i found a old song that really match my real me...

Eason - 浮夸

有人问我 我就会讲
但是无人来
我期待到无奈有话要讲
得不到装载
我的心情犹像樽盖等被揭开
咀巴却在养青苔
人潮内愈文静愈变得不受理睬
自己要搞出意外
像突然地高歌任何地方也像开四面台
着最闪的衫
扮十分感慨
有人来拍照要记住插袋
你当我是浮夸吧
夸张只因我很怕
似木头似石头的话得到注意吗
其实怕被忘记至放大来演吧
很不安怎去优雅
世上还赞颂沉默吗
不够爆炸怎麽有话题
让我夸
做大娱乐家
那年十八母校舞会
站着如喽罗
那时候我含泪发誓各位
必须看到我
在世间平凡又普通的路太多
屋村你住哪一座
情爱中工作中受过的忽视太多
自尊已饱经跌堕
重视能治肚饿
末曾获得过便知我为何
大动作很多犯下这些错
搏人们看看我算病态麽

幸运儿并不多
若然未当过就知我为何
用十倍苦心做突出一个
正常人够我富议论性麽
你叫我做浮夸吧
加几声嘘声也不怕
我在场有闷场的话
表演你看吗
够歇斯底里吗
以眼泪淋花吧
一心只想你惊讶
我旧时似未存在吗
加重注码
青筋也现形话
我知现在存在吗
凝视我别再只看天花
我非你杯茶
也可尽情地喝吧
别遗忘有人在为你声沙

if u really undertand what the lyrics means...
than u wil know the way i m...
sometime i b so silly so foolish ...
cuz jz wan to be 'focus' by urs...
n i know that if u r always close ur mouth,say nothing..
u wil be kick out from a group...
just like the lyrics of the song

i did it...

i did it...my plan success
thx for help me promote...
no need i use my own energy to tell everyone...
ya....what u said there is right...i wan end up friendship with urs...
6 person ... those who very close when 2007..cuz i dun know how to face u all anymore... so i choose to leave...i won't write anythings about urs anymore...
hope ur guys also forgot me ba...wash away me through urs memory
believe it or not...
help me tell everyone ba...
start from today....no more sotongboi anymore...
thx ~

-close fail-
4:47am 08/11/2008

Exam Exam Exam

Exam is coming...
study hard...
dun think too much...
after it...holiday...
than? work lor ~
money money more ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~